" Tong Hua ( Fairytale ) "

Wang le you duo jiu
Zai mei ting dao ni
Dui wo shuo ni
zui ai de gu shi

Wo xiang le hen jiu
Wo kai shi huang le
Shi bu shi wo you
zuo cuo le shen me

Ni ku zhe dui wo shuo
Tong hua li dou shi pian ren de
Wo bu ke neng
shi ni de wang zi

Ye xu ni bu hui dong
Cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
Wo de tian kong
xing xing dou liang le

Wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li
Ni ai de na ge tian shi
Zhang kai shuang shou
Bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni

Ni yao xiang xin
Xiang xin wo men
hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
Xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

Wo yao bian cheng tong hua li
Ni ai de na ge tian shi
Zhang kai shuang shou
Bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni

Ni yao xiang xin
Xiang xin wo men
hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
Xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

Wo hui bian cheng
tong hua li
Ni ai de na ge tian shi
Zhang kai shuang shou
Bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni

Ni yao xiang xin
Xiang xin wo men
hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
Xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

Yi qi xie wo men de jie ju

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i can't believe this is happening.

happen when i truly believe he love me as much as i love him.

it hurt me.

deeply.

deeper than the previous wound.

i literally could hear.

my fragile worn out heart
fall and shattered to million pieces.

i can feel.

the empty hole.

place where my shattered heart used to beat his name.

my heart.

it wasn't there anymore.

i tried.

i tried.

collecting pathetically.

fixing.

mending this broken pieces.

and.

i failed.

my heart.

too broken to be fix.

and.

the worst is.

i couldn't cry.

my tears just won't shed.

i know.

its.

my broken soul.

re activate the wall itself.

defense system.

and i couldn't do anything.

couldn't feel anything.

it.. it feels.. so empty..

empty..

silence..

just the sound of my shattered heart..

Orphan

makin lama makin gila aku .

sending me text after text saying that i somehow manage to transfer her money to my account.

fikir logik lah weh.
even if aku manage curi your fucking bank card.
kau ingat aku ni bomoh?
main tilik number pin kau.
dapat number pin kau dalam mimpi.
and suruh jin transfer sebab

I CAN'T FUCKING GET OUT FROM THAT MOTHERFUCKING HOUSE!!

bangang.

tak habis2 dengan perangai asshole kau!
aku je yang bodoh,
lembut hati bila tengok kau makin lama makin tua sakit.
aku je yang bengong
bertahan dengan kau lepas apa yang kau buat pada aku selama ni.

jangan harap kau dapat tengok muka aku lagi.

kau banggakan sangat kan dengan anak2 saudara kau.
dengan adik2 kau.

fine bitch.

kau g mampus kat rumah dorang.
aku nak tengok berapa lama dorang boleh handle attitude asshole kau!

benci2 aku kat kau
lepas apa yang kau put me through.
after series of torture and agony.
lepas kau tolak aku dalam lubang dalam.gelap and sejuk.
semua tu tak halang aku untuk rasa bertanggungjawab pada kau!
MY SO CALLED MUM!

sebab apa?
aku percaya pada karma.
aku tak sanggup anak aku buat perkara sama pada aku.
and aku lembik.
kaki aku tak cukup kuat untuk tinggalkan kau.
tapi kau tak berubah.
kau tak nampak.
yang kau tahu,
aku bencikan kau.
aku suka hina kau.
itu je yang kau tahu.
kenapa kau buta?
manusia yang baru pertama kali jumpa aku pun faham.
tapi kau??

this is it bitch.
i can't endure your fucked up attitude no more.

kau anggaplah anak yang kau tak pernah sayang ni dah mati.

kesabaran aku dah sampai limit.

kau hiduplah dengan cara kau.

as far as i concern,
both my parent are dead.

" It Will Rain "

If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine
at my door
'Cause it would take
a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.

There's no religion
that could save me
No matter how long
my knees are on the floor (Ooh)

So keep in mind
all the sacrifices I'm makin'
To keep you by my side
To keep you from
walkin' out the door.

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby

Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same,
if you walk away
Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me
in the eye Ooh,

if I was in their shoes,
I'd be doing the same thing
Sayin'
"There goes my little girl
Walkin' with that troublesome guy"

But they're just afraid of something they can't understand Ooh,
but little darlin'
watch me change their minds

Yeah for you I'll try, I'll try, I'll try,
I'll try I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby

Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same,
if you walk away
Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

Oh, don't you say
(don't you say) goodbye (goodbye),

Don't you say
(don't you say) goodbye (goodbye)

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby

And just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same,
if you walk away
Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

Saturday Muse

kusut .

serabut .

alone .

lonely .

broken .

bleeding .

suffocating .

torment .

hurtful .

painful .

crying .

feeling it all and fail to combine it into complete sentence.

Worst Morning

legs are soaring .

menstrual cramp and pain.

severe migraine attack

and yes

bleeding nose.

compilation of a perfect morning muse.

none pain killer left to ease this terrible moment.

*sigh..