Mainan Percintaan

susah
untuk lupakan seseorang yang pernah hadir dalam hidup.
hati.

untuk lupakan seseorang yang berjaya sentuh jiwa walaupun tembok tinggi teguh berdiri telah ku bina.

untuk lupakan seseorang yang pernah jadi teman, kekasih, abang, keluarga.
seseorang yang aku depend fully untuk terus hidup. bernafas.

its hard. excruciating.
to let him go.
but it is more agonizing to live with the fact.
that he cheated.

sigh..
torn.
can't even choose which path should i take.
difficult to be sure that am not going to regret it someday.

sick of this aching pain.
tired of this tears that never seems to end.

even tried to slits my arm again.
deeper and deeper by each slits.
blood failed to wash this pain away.

what do i need to do?
to let this pain go?
to stop this pain from torturing me every single fucked up minutes.

sigh..

started to use sleeping pills.
again.

only way for me to sleep and forget everything.