Broken Piece

Why...
After all this time..
I still feels this stabbing pain..
Shed my tears for broken piece of memory..

I wish..
I could cry away all this pain..

I wish..
I could drown away this memories in an evergoing river..

I wish...
I just wish...
I wasn't to naive before..
Naive in believing something that will ever never happen..

Why..
Are God toying with me life?
My heart.. My soul..

Aren't He suppose to love me?
Protect me? Care for me?

I know I know..

I shouldn't blame Him..

Its my pure stupidity for falling in a deep sea which I will never survive..

My conscience..
My logic part of brain..
Knocking yelling for the truth which I choose to ignore for being blinded by cloudy haze of love..

Love... Deep and deeper...

Love...

And I..

Broken soulless shell..

Soulless..