Tonight..
The night I feel so broken..
Broken and empty..

Devastated.. Agony..
Lurking in the very air that I breathe..

Tears shedding..
The pain still remain..
Deeper as time passed..

Broken Piece

Why...
After all this time..
I still feels this stabbing pain..
Shed my tears for broken piece of memory..

I wish..
I could cry away all this pain..

I wish..
I could drown away this memories in an evergoing river..

I wish...
I just wish...
I wasn't to naive before..
Naive in believing something that will ever never happen..

Why..
Are God toying with me life?
My heart.. My soul..

Aren't He suppose to love me?
Protect me? Care for me?

I know I know..

I shouldn't blame Him..

Its my pure stupidity for falling in a deep sea which I will never survive..

My conscience..
My logic part of brain..
Knocking yelling for the truth which I choose to ignore for being blinded by cloudy haze of love..

Love... Deep and deeper...

Love...

And I..

Broken soulless shell..

Soulless..

Everything

Everything..
Feels so wrong..

My life..
Seems so cold damp
With no sunrays heat to warm me up..

The girl I used to know..
Somehow has left me in this unknown pitch black hole..
And all I could see
Are the reflection of an empty shell..

Lifeless.. Broken..

I know..
I'm recoiling back..
To girl I used to be..

What can I do?
What will I do?

My condemn soul are in too much pain..
And..
I would be selfish is I force it to stay..
But..
If I were to let it go..
I'll be empty.. Soulless..
With no purpose walking..
Living in this dreadful world..

Empty..
Soulless..