I couldn't stop smiling..
Well I guess this is the side effect of falling in love deeply..
Sweetest guy I ever met and truth to be told us that I melt like putty in his hand..
Gosh...
I still remember vividly last night..
Spending time singing talking laughing with him..
I wish.. I wish I could kiss those lush lips of him...
I wish I could just hold him and caress him..
God... Please help me..
I love him and its irreversible..
After my failure in my so called relationship.
I never thought I can make myself to be this close with any man.
Especially when somebody left a prominent scar in my heart.
Who am I trying to lie when I thought there will be a guy who love me truly regardless my physical misfortune.
But with him.
I could be me.
The clumsy butterfinger girl.
The terrible body coordination girl.
We spent enormous time together and without him,
I don't know..
I feel so incomplete..
Fragile..exposed..
I can't say this is love..
Not when my so called love ended with a disaster..
Sigh..
Why life has to be so complicated..
Tonight.
As we walked through the rain.
He sang he laugh.
And I feel my life complete by hearing his laughter..
And.. After his long leave..
His vibe towards me has change..
I'm not certain if this is only my feeling and I'm deluding..
But then..
I can see he tend to protect me.
Help me in every way possible.
Even I can see glint of happiness in his eyes when I inform him that I'll be his neighbour.
Did he love me as much as I love him?
I wish I know..
I wish I have the strength..
I doesn't want to lose this friendship..
