The Regrets

Did you guys know,

Somewhere in past,
Few stuff happened.

And next thing we know,
We're no longer the same person we used to be .

I did something.
Something stupid.
There's nothing in this world that can me feel better.

Opened up every single thing
Ripped my heart over again.
Its deeper and even more painful than before.

I tried to forget
I tried to kill it
Pieces of memory
that suffocating me .

Oh God.
Why did i need to lived this life.
Painful and alone.
Tears and blood.

For God sake,
The urge is crawling out.
Someone had broke the cage i build.
I am not the strong girl i thought i was.

Here i am
With a silver blade in my hand.
Resisting all the urge to see the blood.

Oh God help me.
I need to see the blood.
Desperately need the blood.
To ease my pain.
To ease my wounded soul.

I can't.
I'm weak though i refuse to believe.

This pain is too painful.
This wound bleed too much.

Blood are the way.
The only road that left.
A painful path lies beneath
A serenity that ease my soul.